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I need something. Something that will get me through the day without feeling a little sad and worried. I suppose there's nothing wrong with feeling a little sad and worried at the end of the day, it all depends on what kind of sadness you're feeling, and what kind of worry you're feeling. Well I'll tell you what kind of sadness and worry I'm feeling. I get a little sad because I honestly don't have any friends except for my one friend that moved away and don't meet that often, I love her and she's the best friend you can possibly have, but as I said, we sadly don't meet so much. I've always been alone, from grade 1 to high school that starts in two weeks. I've had a lot of fake friends and I've never felt so alone as I felt when I was around them. Grade 7 (and grade 8, but I will get to that later) was the worst year of my entire life. Thinking about it chokes me up. I was a strong lone wolf at that time, but I was also very sad, heartbroken, unstable person. I will always have these horrible memories with me, for my entire life, they have shaped me, but at the end of the day I'm glad I got through it.
Being shoved in to walls, being kicked at, being spit at, having food thrown at you, being stared at, being called names, being an outcast, hurting yourself because you think there's something wrong with you and you need to be punished, starting to cry in the middle of a lesson because you just can't hold it in anymore.

I accidentally started talking about me being bullied, but yeah, one thing lead to another.
I'm sad because I'm alone. I'm worried because I don't know what will become of me.